{"id":1146,"date":"2020-02-22T17:53:59","date_gmt":"2020-02-23T01:53:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/digitalmanticore.com\/?p=1146"},"modified":"2020-02-22T17:53:59","modified_gmt":"2020-02-23T01:53:59","slug":"a-week-in-the-life-february-22-2020","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/digitalmanticore.com\/?p=1146","title":{"rendered":"A Week in the Life: February 22, 2020"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

This week has been a lot. My work laptop broke first thing Monday morning. I tripped and sprained my ankle while locking up my bike at the library. Today we got our taxes done and have been informed that we owe the federal government about $3,850. Anyway, here I am.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Consuming<\/h2>\n\n\n\n

Here are some things I read, watched, or bought this week.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Reading<\/h3>\n\n\n\n
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The Fuck It Diet<\/figcaption><\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n\n

I got this book from the library and devoured it in just a few days. I kept taking pictures of the text to post on instagram, but decided I couldn’t post the whole book and gave up. The premise of The Fuck It Diet is that going on a diet makes your body think that you’re living through a famine. During famine, metabolism slows down and your body slowly cannibalizes itself. When you start eating again, the body wants way more calories than before so it can fortify itself against future famine. The only cure? Eat whatever you want, all the time. Not with the secret goal of “intuitive” eating or like “I’ll eat what I want for a while, then go back to losing weight” but truly eating whatever feels right. Caroline Dooner cites studies demonstrating that starving people need excess calories for a long time before the body stabilizes, and what are dieters if not starving people? <\/p>\n\n\n\n

When I started reading The Fuck It Diet I thought, well, I halfway do that already so will I really benefit from this book? I don’t “diet,” per se but I have been tracking my calorie intake for most of the last year. I pretty much eat what I want and I’m “fine” with my weight and my body. However, this book evoked a lot of emotions (as it’s meant to). I still think I’m eventually going to “get my shit together” and lose weight, even if I have no plans to be thin. I am still afraid of gaining weight because I’m scared of taking up too much space and being in the way. I’m worried that people will think I’m lazy and stupid and not take me seriously. I fret over being able to find nice, comfortable clothes that make me look cool. One of the big tenets of the Fuck it Diet is that you can’t be afraid to gain weight. It’s normal to be hungry and follow up on that feeling. Your body knows what it needs to survive. It’s not normal to feel hungry, shout “Why am I still hungry<\/em>?” and then sulk about it, which is something I often do.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I think I’m going to be processing what I read for a while, even though it didn’t take long to read. Would I really be okay with gaining more weight? Am I going to count calories … for the rest of my life? I don’t know. Emotions are complicated, but food should not be. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I’ve been collecting internet reads for the last couple of weeks without sharing them, so here’s a bunch:<\/p>\n\n\n\n