{"id":1355,"date":"2020-05-30T17:49:18","date_gmt":"2020-05-31T00:49:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/digitalmanticore.com\/?p=1355"},"modified":"2020-05-30T17:49:18","modified_gmt":"2020-05-31T00:49:18","slug":"some-amount-of-time-in-the-life-may-30-2020","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/digitalmanticore.com\/?p=1355","title":{"rendered":"Some Amount of Time in the Life: May 30, 2020"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

The world’s on fire, sheltering in place continues, and I’m fine I guess. I’m sure I’ve talked about this before, but I struggle with the dissonance between being personally okay and seeing what’s happening in the world. It feels like survivor’s guilt, although that’s not strictly accurate either. I don’t feel guilty. I feel lucky<\/em>. Lucky to be employed and in my cozy house with plenty of books to read and food to cook. There’s a sense of “why should I feel upset or stressed,” but I’ve seen a few takes that essentially say we’re all witnessing and experiencing some level of trauma right now. Having society completely change and all your expectations get smashed is traumatic. I’m planning to read up on this idea some more and then perhaps I will have something more enlightening to say. For now, I’ll just say that if you feel weird or stressed or guilty or freaked out even if you’re “fine,” I hear you. I get it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Consuming<\/h2>\n\n\n\n

Here are some things I’ve been reading, watching, and buying.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Reading<\/h3>\n\n\n\n
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I’ve been reading a lot and rotating through several books every day because it makes me feel like I’m doing different things, even though I haven’t left the couch or hammock. I’ve also been putting lots of library ebooks on hold because I want something to look forward to but everything is cancelled. Luckily, I’m easily entertained.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

One of the fun novels I read this week is Ancestral Night<\/a> by Elizabeth Bear. This is an interesting sci-fi story about a small crew of space scavengers who get caught up in some bad shit (as one does) and have to deal with their sense of self and ethics and ancient tech. There’s AI, lesbians in space<\/a>, and space pirates. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

In internet reading:<\/p>\n\n\n\n